Never an umbrella

I want to get away
and never return
this drag of a life
has not been fun

It's like it's been raining
for days on end
with never an umbrella
anywhere I am

It's like I am falling
into an abyss
no safety nets
no peace

my dreams are vivid
as clear as day
my conscience is molded
forever in clay

will the skies ever part for me
and take me home
because right now
I AM DONE

An Ode

oh I hate the way I feel about you
how I always have this need
to wake up to your lovely face
every early morn, every day indeed

I love the way you sound
when you are right next to me
when I run my fingers on you
I love how it feels

I love that you can be personalised
and have parts that can be changed
if my husband was that way
my life would never be the same

an ode to my Nokia E75

Take it back

There are worse things I have done
but nothing compared to this
for here I am wishing I was somewhere else
when life's been very fair to me

Sometimes I pray Lord take me back
10 years or more
I would make a better decision
I would probably be a better person

But life has a humour
which I have failed to understand
for I am here aching
trying as hard as I can

If you read this and you know
how horrible I am
I'm sorry that I've hurt you
for it is that I never meant

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Things in Common

We have so many things in common

We share the same moon
the same sky
the same ocean that spans the world wide

The share the same air
the atmosphere
and yet you are so far while I am just here

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Wonder

I've been wondering
Where do I go
with all that I have
with all that I do

Is there something to look forward to
each day when I awake
or the days just go by
without a notice or a life

Did I do something wrong?
I'll never know till this life is gone
or may it come haunt me
before my time is up

If you know the answers
someone please drop me a line
for I am being tormented
without a reason why

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What I can't tell you

It's hard to see you stand just there
looking right through me
your heart just beats right through mine
you know just how i feel
i can't just say what i want
for consequences i can't bear
and yet you stare into my soul
to think that i would dare
for one thought of having you
would tear all apart
for you stand too far away
though you are right here in my heart
My thought each day they go to you
each moment that i breathe
it scares me so that i do feel
such a way about you
this feelings they have a way
of taking me away from what is real
so if I said I'm sorry
please know just how i feel

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One Last Time

Your eyes
they tell me about your adventures
the places and people
that you've seen

The stories that lived
through the opening of your soul
registered and remembered
by tales that you've told

They ponder on every thought
and sparkle at every idea
they smile when I see through you
and make me wonder

your eyes
they lead me to your heart
that once I used to dwell
now they stare into someone else's

and I know that I've lost you
to circumstance and life
i would give anything to look into your eyes
just one last time

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